anna has to go to alaska next week. i'm absolutely dreading this. she'll leave tuesday evening and come back at midnight friday/saturday. my mom, fortunately, is getting into town early friday morning. i just don't know what i'll do the other day/nights. when anna gets home in the evening, even on good days, i'm ready for some help with arden. my back hurts, i'm tired, i just want to move freely. anna said i should have people come over to help, but it makes me feel guilty/bad/anxious having someone else take care of my crying baby. i'm crying now and feeling like a stupid bum. i don't have a best friend that i can just call up and come over. i don't have my family here. having a baby is making me feel more alone right now. i really wish i had close friends in the same stage in life right here. i hate feeling so confused all the time.
-really big sigh-
on a different track, does anyone know if vitamins/supplements could upset a baby? i've tried looking online and in my books, but i'm not having luck. i'm just trying to figure out if this there could be a correlation between arden's fussiness and the vitamins i'm taking. they aren't anything unusual. i take a prenatal, vitamin b, vitamin d, calcium, and omega 3. some days all i manage to grab is the prenatal.