Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009
first bad thing, she gave our cat, malo, an aural hematoma, ie- she injured his left ear and it got infected. it swelled up. they had to put a hole in his ear and drain it. the poor baby has stitches and has to take medicine twice a day. guess how much it cost.... $430 dollars! well $150 was for dental stuff (cleaning etc.), which should be done while under anesthetic.
second bad thing, she chewed up my basal thermometer this morning. it still works but makes the saddest sounding beep when i turn it on. the tip i put in my mouth is crooked and the other end has teeth marks. grrr.... i'll need a new one. thank god it's cheap.
there better not be a bad thing number 3! bad girl! hmph
Friday, January 23, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
i had one odd thing happen yesterday. i took a couple days off of doing the ovulens, thinking nothing would really show up at this stage. well i did it yesterday morning and much to my surprise i had a full strong lens of ferns. i'm not sure what it was exactly that caused this, but anna and i have a couple theories. tuesday night i had alot of trouble falling asleep so i got up to have a snack. i had an apple with peanut butter and a mug of soy milk. when i went back to bed, i didn't brush my teeth again. theory one is that the salt from the p.b. affected the results, or perhaps, less likely, the estrogen that is in the soy milk (naturally occurring) affected it. the second theory is that i'm having enough of a late cycle spike of estrogen to show up.
i'm leaning more to the second theory because this morning had the same results. the fern weren't as large. i made sure to brush my teeth thoroughly after my snack. hmmm...
we got a new book "taking charge of your fertility". it seems to have a lot of the same things i've already discovered, but i'm still liking it so far. it had some color pictures in the back of nifty things (not for the squeamish). it showed the cervix before ovulation, at ovulation, and after. way cool. it also showed different types of cervical mucus. yes, this is kind of an icky concept, but seriously who hasn't wondered "is this normal?". pictures are a good thing.
speaking of icky concepts and how this makes us feel uncomfortable. i'm finding out so much about my body that no one ever talked to me about. it shouldn't be this way. the more we know about the natural workings of our body, the more we are able to help ourselves. we can have control over our reproduction, our health, our ailments. it also isn't complicated! i still trust doctors and those in the medical profession (my RNP is totally supportive), but by being more personally aware we can have a better relationship with these people. doctors don't need to be scary. we don't need to have unnecessary tests. we don't need unnecessary prescriptions.
i was surprised recently when i was talking to wonderful friend who i adore. she admitted that she was weirded out reading some of my blogs because i talk about things like mucus. this concerns me because if she's weirded out reading this maybe she won't feel comfortable talking with a doctor about what's going on with her body.
just a bit of rambling:) i just care about all my lady friends and think they should know their lady bits.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
i've read a bit more about the ovulens because i wanted to know exactly what it was showing me. during the first half of your cycle (cd-cycle day, starts with your period), also called the follicular phase, your estrogen level is rising. when this happens the salinity (concentration of dissolved salts) in your saliva is increasing. so when i spit on the little ovulens and let it dry, what i'm really seeing is crystallized salt. when progesterone kicks in, after ovulation, this salinity drops away.
also, your temperature is lower when your estrogen is pumping, and higher with progesterone. the second half of the cycle is called the luteal phase.
it is sooo interesting what your body does. i had no idea about all of this till a month ago. i mean i read about it in 'the new essential guide to lesbian conception, pregnancy, and birth', but to see it is very different.
some the info i put in here today came from this website: http://www.americanpregnancy.org/gettingpregnant/understandingovulation.html
*basal body temperature
Friday, January 16, 2009
i went for nice half hour walk with olive this morning. for those that don't know lovely olive, she is our 1 1/2 yr old puppy. she's a mix of (most likely) yorkie, corgi, and beagle. she's awesome:) recently she learned how to shake. sometimes she gets confused as to what trick we are going to ask her to do. so, she'll quickly sit, lay down, roll over, get back up, and wait for us to direct her. haha. it cracks me up. also, when she's really excited and we try to get her to calm down by doing a trick (usually roll over). she'll sit down and spin on her butt thinking that's the same as laying down and rolling over. i love it!
we don't have a tv and what we end up doing a lot in the evenings is just watching or playing with her. wonderful entertainment. i'll load some pictures as soon as i can.
we also have a very stoic kitty named malo. olive loves to pester him and wrestle. malo used to be a wee bit tubby. since we got olive, he gets a lot more exercise!
a friend of mine is working on putting together her nursery. it's making me itchy to do the same. patience is obviously not my forte regarding this adventure. i can't remember if i already told you i figured out the color for the nursery. it's "a touch of spring", nice light green. i've noticed before that mid-cycle i get in the mood to organize and clean. could be an ovulation sign?
Thursday, January 15, 2009
i did this and waited patiently for it to dry completely. when i looked in, it was different than other times. it wasn't exactly ferning but it wasn't blobby either. it looked like a very frosty window. i tried magnifying it as much as possible and i thing it might be a bunch of very tiny ferns. anna agrees. yippee! i'll try the same thing tomorrow and see what happens.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Friday, January 9, 2009
this picture is what a transitioning lens looks like. the things that look like antennas are the ferns. when not transitioning or ovulating the lens just has a bunch of blobbies.
i'll do a quick ovulens recap, too, to explain how it works. you take the nifty contraption (see photo in the previous blog), open it up, flip down the glass lens, put some fresh morning spit on it:), wait 10 mins till dry, flip the lens back up, turn on the green light, and view. this thing will help me pinpoint when i ovulate and can also work as a pregnancy test. it's basically a small microscope.
yea for simple easy technology!
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Saturday, January 3, 2009
i also want to apologize for what i said in my last blog. i made an incorrect assumption regarding at least one of my friends that just got pregnant, and maybe i assumed wrong with some of the others. i had made the presumption that my friends got pregnant without planning because they were hetero and married/engaged. that was wrong of me. i was writing without thinking about what i was saying. sorry ladies.
in my defence, i am pmsing, haha:) congrats to all you pregnant beautiful women.
shit... we're ready for this. i want this. i'm not going to be scared away from it. great now i'm getting weepy at work. i just want to have a beautiful healthy baby with my wife. there are so many things i'm not going to have control over and i wish i did. what if i can't get pregnant? what if it cost us more than we can afford? what if i have a miscarriage? what if our baby isn't healthy?
i know i just need to take care of what i'm able. eat healthy, exercise, track my ovulation, talk with whomever is our preggo professional. -sigh-
there are 5 ladies i know in-real-life (IRL) that are pregnant now. they all got pregnant by traditional hetero means. i'm very happy for all of them. i'm also very jealous. it just happened. no tracking, no purchasing. yeah yeah- i could just get some guy to knock me up but... ew :) haha. sorry, i'm just moping.
i'm also stressing about tracking my ovulation. so this might be too much information for some readers, but maybe someone will have an idea that will help me. right so my last period i started spotting around 12/3, but i feel like i didn't start my period until 12/14 (had cramps/real blood). my period ended about 12/16. now, i started spotting 12/31, which is earlier than i expected. i'm feeling kinda crampy today. so, the question is, do i count the day i start spotting as the first day of my cycle or do i count the day i get major cramps and real bleeding.
the other thing is i believe i ovulated around christmas based on several indicators. i'm all confused.
ps- figured out why "chumbawumba" made me weepy :) duh- i'm pms-ing. ha